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Oh dear....

It's one of those days and I'm afraid this is one of those posts -

You know the ones.... it's a RANT baby and there is nothing I can do to stop it.... (well there probably is, but I won't) I know you don't want to read it but I have to have a whinge somewhere so here it is.

I've got a case of the sads :-(  Feel as if I'm surrounded by a lot of people who have a lot of problems / issues / hang ups and that I'm stuck in the middle of it expected to be nice about it and give them lots of love.



Edvard Munch; The Scream; 1893



And I do love them. And I care. But right now I really just wish they'd all F off somewhere, because I'm tired, I have nothing left and I am left quite literally screaming inside in an effort to maintain the calm exterior.

A lot of this is my fault - like everyone the person I am is made up of all different traits, some good, some bad, some ugly and some just somewhere in the middle. One of my (possibly?) best traits is that I am (usually) a nice person, I see both sides of the story and I'm caring. Or another way of seeing this is (and I'm quoting actual comments here lol) that I'm a door mat & a fence sitter.

Which is about right - seeing everyone's point of view and being understanding often means that I get really good of not saying what I think or pushing what I want to do.

Which is where I am now.

Well there you have it - Rant over! Definitely time for a bit of ME time and standing up for myself I think.

Reaching for the oxygen mask so I can help others - Have a good weekend peeps :-)